I have not done a good job of taking one day at a time...... they all seem to catch up to me at one time and then I just break down. Battling with the depression/emotional side effects from the medication and it is unbearable. I hate that part of it.....it almost makes you feel defeated, jaded, damaged, burdened, unloved/unlovable....well it does make you feel that way, but I have to push through it.
PUSH = Pray Until Something Happens.....
Today will be treatment # 7 of the abolishing beam. 23 to go! It is getting a little easier wearing the mask. Randy (my brother) got to see it on Friday when he took me to Moffitt. They showed him how everything works. It is absolutely amazing.
I had some headaches and dizziness over the weekend, but not today - thank God. I woke up headache free this morning. I was told that the radiation can cause your brain to swell and that could be what is causing the headaches - especially since I am starting week 2 (that is when the side effects start).
We had the honey cart this weekend at the Wiregrass Farmers Market. I met a lady who stopped by to purchase bee pollen. She had brain surgery back in May 2011 for an aneurysm. We basically had the same surgery (craniotomy). She has been taking bee pollen (instead of the medication.....because of all of the side effects she was experiencing from the medication) and has an incredible testimony. This lady looked fantastic!!!! I wished I would have had more time to talk to her. The bee pollen has helped her hair grow back and she feels wonderful. We tell hundreds of people about the benefits of bee pollen when we are at the market.....why didn't I think of taking it before now?!?!?..... dummy me. I am starting it today...... if you want more info - let me know. I can hook you up with honey and bee pollen - it is local and RAW!!! yummy-yummy.
Washed another load of laundry yesterday..... with nothing in the washer.
I wondered why the washer was so quiet...... oh well.
I tried to be productive......
I named the tumor Jack and this is a song just for him......
(I take no ownership over this tumor because it will be gone soon!!!)
suckeggdawg.......
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