11 down = 19 to go!

abolishing beam #11 was administered today.  4 more and I will be half way done with treatment.  


a very special friend, Dee, took me to my treatment today. she is always offering to help me so i "let" her today - as she calls it.  as i've said before - i am not one to ask for help even in a time of need.  i am so thankful for Dee as she was there for me at another very important time in my life 21 years ago! we lost touch over the years....i wish there was a way to go back and recover the lost years. she is always such a joy to be around and i have so missed spending time with her. 

circa 1990

my dizziness is gone - thank God. i did not take the steroid that was prescribed..... do you ever read the little note from the pharmacy that is attached to the bottle?? - well you should....... after reading this one - the first possible side effect mentioned was "feeling of whirling motion"....ummmm. no thanks.  why would i want to make it worse?? 


had the weekly meeting with the radiation oncologist and nurse. things are going according to plan.  he was very nice and answered all of my questions (i am full of them!). 

let me ask all of you something......... 

who here can say that you have already met your 

annual insurance deductible for 2012?  

raise your hand......my hand is up.  

it is January 13th and I have already met my $10,000 deductible..... and that was easy.  One radiation abolishing beam costs $1,142.96 (yes, that is per treatment and that already includes the discount from the insurance company...Moffitt charges $2,198 per treatment to the insurance company!!)!!  crazy, huh!?!?  should be illegal.  who comes up with these charges??


one of these days - i am going to add up every single test, MRI, CT scan, hospital stay, surgery, anesthesia, doc visit, follow up, medications, etc to see what "jack" has inflicted financially. i would without a doubt say that this entire "jack" episode will be over $300,000 (+).  thankfully, insurance covers 100% after the deductible is met.  


all i know is how thankful i am for great insurance.    


thankful for a lot of things...... not always the best at showing it.  


enjoy your weekend.  i am going to try to figure out what to do with my hair this weekend  - momma needs a weave or something.  a friend sent me some pics of short-hair cuts, but my face is too fat for short hair so i need to be creative.  although - i could just walk around with a baboon bedhead and not care about it.  oh well..... 

Love me some Wynonna.  
This song just touches my core.....
she said her momma told her
"honey, let them see the brokenness, 
let them see the cracks in your armour - 
that is how the light gets out"
how true.....  

suckeggdawg y'all.